It's been a long time.

I thrive to be the girl he dreams of.
Why?

For some time I've thought that I needed someone.
But I'm beginning to realize that I don't need anyone else.
I need me.
I need my own motivation and my own skills.

When I was little, adults puts ideas and possibilities in my head that I could be whatever I wanted to be.
Along the road of adulthood, I've been sidetracked and lost my vision and goals.

I wanted to be a singer.
I have a beautiful voice that I've taken for granted.I
smoke and never sing.
I wanted to be a Personal Representative.
I let boys and a social life come between that dream and myself.
Now, I want to be an event/wedding planner.
I would be insanely stupid to let this dream slip through my fingers.

I need to get on track and go to school.
I need business classes and other studies that will help me achieve this goal.
I need to find a job or internship to ready me for the challenges that my career will present.
I want to be independent and make my own money.
I never want to have to rely on anyone but myself for the things that I need.
I want to pay off my debts and begin my life as a real live adult.

Life is full of wants and needs and it's up to me to make it all happen.

* i wish i had a cell phone that wasn't a POS.