Intelligence is hard to come by..

I want so badly to feel "smart." It's embarassing to think that I couldn't have an intelligent conversation if I needed to.

I'm not saying my friends aren't smart, by any means. But maybe my specific "group" just isn't the type to sit down and talk about things like politics and war.

What do I really know about that stuff anyway? Not a whole lot. I learned that during the election. I said that I wouldn't have voted for either because I didn't like some things they stood for. In reality, I just didn't know enough.

I found myself practically begging a friend to have an argument with me the other day. Though, I don't think actually wanted to argue. I think I just wanted to have an intense conversation where I could feel like I knew something other than celebrity gossip and music.

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Things to Look In To:

1. Reading more books.
2. Culinary school.
3. Cleaning my apartment.

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Eventually I will get out of Country Cookin. I have faith in that.

I could go to culinary school and become a chef. But I wouldn't make any of that weird stuff.
I would want to cook stuff that I know and love. Food that makes people feel good.
That is the exact reason I want to become a chef. To make people feel good.
Who doesn't love food? Even if you have an eating disorder, you love food.
Most of the time people turn to food to feel good. What better profession?





*I want an Xbox 360 for Christmas SO bad.